10:55 a.m. - 2006-10-25
too sensitive?!
I don't know what's wrong with me... I've got a (pen)friend with whom I spent my summer holidays three times.

We didn't meet the last two years because last year we were both busy and this year I fought with my thesis... We keep in touch via the good old letter, e-mails or sms.
After hearing nothing from her since some month she got back to me with some nice e-mails which made me think that she wants to keep in touch even though things might have changed for both of us - becoming adults after all - she's quite serious with her boyfriend and thinks to move in with him- even leaving her home-country. Me developing other interests than the music that originally made us friends and the mess with my thesis and so on...

Anyway, she sent me a sms this week wanting to know how I am and how I am doing with my thesis. Telling her that I failed was hard - as it is for me to tell anyone. But with her it was even worse - I fear that she looks down on me now - thinking I'm too spoiled to get anything right and that I'm too stupid... Of course I don't have top grades but I managed to get so far and now I'd like to finish.
I just hope she's not ceasing any friendship with me...

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